Aug21
I have retired from achievement hunting
First off, I'll congratulate my team BEASTMODE on winning GTASC teams (by the skin of our teeth lmfao). I fell 40% short of my goal and was so burned out that I found it hard to keep going. No excuses just a failure to live up to my goals. That being said there are reasons I am retiring from gaming that I haven't fully released due to a fear that it might affect the outcome of GTASC (though I had my doubts).
8 months ago, I found out I had cancer. It sent me into a depression. I wanted to make changes in my life and part of that was to quit gaming. I was caught in a dilemma tho. I spent 2 years preparing for GTASC and would abandon my team right before the start and I would have severely wasted 2 years. I made the decision to delay treatment for 8 months. I may live to regret this, but I doubt it. The odds of survival are great. The cancer had no effect on my performance in GTASC. My burned-out feeling came from multiple all nighters that clearly played against me. I wouldnt recommend the strategy.
3 days before finals ended my nephew had his finger cut off in a freak accident. I couldnt stop gaming to be with him in the hospital. This amplified the feelings i've been feeling and i took a day off of gaming. This likely costed my team a minimum of 50k TAD or more. My heart still hurts that I wasnt there for him and can't allow anything like that to happen again.
I dont intend to give more information than that. I am done gaming and want to spend the rest of my time on earth with my family and friends. I will keep in touch but gaming has been an unhealthy addiction in my life. I have given up all the rest and now its time to give up this. All the best to you all. No pity party here so dont flood me with emotion please.